Mr Apple ~ more lonely than alone

me myself ......I can really just hate my life.There were so much down rather than being on the peak.But me guess, thats what we've called life anyway.Under some circumstances,me not really sure where me heading to right now.me might not even have a goal yet and my purposed, me hate to say this!!!!!! but still a loser in my own little world.

Lucky for me,me still surviving;unlike some people who killed themselves to cut it short.Well,that was totally out of question for me. me just still have to believe that somehow,someday things will turn up the way it should be.me keep those fate and let a miracle do it's job.

At first when people talked about love I just thought "hey,how hard could it be?".But newsflash,I realized that love would be my biggest and unsolved mystery.Now I made the decision that this whole love is major problem in life that makes me feels so pethatic without having no one to love and be love.Its hard for me living in this life alone.But I must admit that its hard for a person like me to find true love.Reason;.Its kind of shut me down when I realized that I can't change the fact although I wanted to.

Its weird because sometimes me think me can always get used to these being a loner kinda thing when I still have a family and those super cool friends around me.But think twice,how much and how long I can keep depending on them?They do have other life to share with other people too.I just hate sitting alone in my room when my mind start thinking how sad can I be for being a major loner.I also got tired of hoping and wishing for something incredible stoopid for me to beg for.

I've experienced so many things in life, my career is superb, me have a wonderful friends can rely on, me have every things what i want ..... i really hoping that what i miss before will come back to me as normal ... uwwwaaaaaa i miss it so much GOD !!!!But that is the hardest thing in this reality life of me.