BlueApple

Sometimes I really feel my life was just another lame joke.I easily fall in love to someone who doesn't really care. Even sometimes I fell for hopes that was only fakes. Its just who I am and I can never stop believing things like that even I got fooled so many times. Reason:because I am desperately looking for love. People keep giving hopes even when they actually didn't mean it.

I bet they never realise it or its just the fact that human is full of bull****.It was stoopid of me who fell for those kind of crap. Why? Because sometimes it is too persuasive, seems so real and so sweet to hear. Things like that will make me feel so special and appreciated by someone. Its just keep getting hurt when people keep saying things that is too good to be true for the sake of giving sympathy or to make me comfortable.

Stop! Because at the end of it, I'll hurt even worse. It's just so pathetic for me when I keep on feeling lonely. Am I the only one who feeling this way? I always keep on hoping that someday I'll find someone who is right for me. But until now, I am still here; alone and keep on looking to the stars. I don't want to be like this forever. I want to be happy. Why was I not given the chance to love and be love?

I turn to God whenever I feel as if I don't belong. But how come my pray still haven't be granted? I am so tired of crying whenever I feel so down, as if I don't have anyone for me. Not even a close friend. I hardly believe on friendship lately since so many things happened to me. I only wish for happiness. Is that too much to ask for? Is that so hard to get?